For all of God’s promises have been fulfilled in Christ with a resounding YES, and through Christ, our AMEN ascends to God for His glory.2 Corinthians 1:20, NLT
I am throwing a curve ball at you this week and giving you two in one. Today is a special day, so it seemed fitting for me to share this with you all now instead of making you wait until Tuesday. I have been talking with you all a lot about the journey I have been on over the past year and how the Lord has really worked on healing my heart and preparing me for the fulfillment of a promise. I think the one thing through and through that the Lord has taught me at every part of my life, especially over the past several years, is patience and trust in His timing. It has created a lot of faith in me that He really does have a plan for my life and there are certain seasons I need to go through to really prepare me for all that He has for me. As I sit here writing this, I cannot help but feel overwhelmed with emotions because….ya’ll….HE DID IT. Through all of the waiting and the trials of healing that I have been through, He was right on time with the fulfillment of a word. I mean I didn’t know “by years end” literally meant THE END OF THE YEAR, but it really happened in the perfect moment, out of nowhere and caught me by complete surprise. So, without making you wait forever, let me introduce you to…Jonathan.
I was laying in bed late one night when I received a Facebook message from a woman I work in the cafe with at church, and she said “hey, I’ve been thinking about your single problem”. I laughed pretty hard and then responded. We exchanged several messages back and forth about this guy and she told me that her and her husband had been in prayer for him and that when talking about finding him a good woman, my name came to mind. She gave him my number and about two seconds later I get a message from him. He and I conversed a little bit and he asked me out for the next day. For some strange reason, I said yes. My friend from the cafe described him as a pretty adventurous guy who was also pretty country. If you know anything about me… you know I don’t do country. Despite being raised in the literal country, I am all city. But, I thought to myself, you know what…it is time to branch out and try something new.
I could not sleep. I felt panicked yet also slightly excited. Morning came and went and then it was time for our date. We met up and walked at the park for a bit, ate dinner at my favorite restaurant (which he picked without even knowing), played games and mini golf, then got some ice cream. If you do not know me very well, then let me tell you, I am about as awkward as it gets when meeting new people and I don’t like to put myself in situations where I could potentially be embarrassed. So going on a date in general was terrifying for me, much less to play games and run the risk of being terrible in front of him…but it was the absolute best date I have ever been on. I have never felt a level of comfortableness as I did on the first day of meeting him. It was effortless and caught me completely off guard. I went on this date with every expectation of not liking him at all…and ended the date being completely amazed by the man I had just met. No lie…my cheeks hurt from smiling and laughing for DAYS.
While I could never adequately described all of who he is or the depth of my admiration for him, I will do my best to give some insight to the guy who is the answer to a long awaited prayer. Jonathan is unlike any man I have ever met. There has not been one moment since meeting him where I have felt anything less than loved and cared for. I have never fully trusted any man to be able to take care of me in the way my dad takes care of my mother or even the way my dad has taken care of me, but with Jonathan, there is this undeniable trust that developed from the beginning that he is someone I can trust and that I can be safe with. He is such a hard worker and is always finding things to do, not only for himself, but for others as well. It is innate for him to do things that a man should do for a woman and he does them without me asking and without complaint. If he notices anything that could make life easier or better for me, without hesitation, he does it. He learned rather quickly that my Jeep is never going to have gas because I hate stopping and doing it, but he doesn’t complain. Even if we are in separate vehicles, he still stops and pumps the gas for me. It’s the little things for me, like replacing my headlights because he didn’t think mine were bright enough, or pulling the car around when its raining so I don’t get soaked, cooking me dinner, or going out of his way after a long day at work just to see me for 5 minutes. I sometimes find myself feeling weird about all the little things he does for me and wondering what in the world is going on…but at the same time I find myself embracing the man I have in front of me and being thankful for him.
He is hilarious. There are very few moments that he does not have me laughing or feeling complete joy by just the randomness that he says or does. He picks on me…A LOT. I needed this in my life because I am too uptight about everything and he just does it in a way that reminds me that it’s okay to be silly and laugh. He is adventurous for sure. Our second time seeing each other was met with complete terror as he took me for a ride in his RZR. I do believe my eyes were closed 90% of the time as the guy is doing full 360s around trees in the woods going a ridiculous speed. Yet somehow, I just had confidence in his ability to drive this thing and knew I would be okay…completely terrified..but okay. He forces me out of my comfort zone, but not in a way that produces anxiety or true fear, but in a way that provides growth for me. The level of confidence and trust I have in him is unlike anything I have ever had with even people I have known my whole life.
He really checks all of the boxes and then some. He is patient with me. Listens and comforts me when I cry. He heard my whole life story and the choices I have made over the last several years and responded with grace, compassion, and support. He has conversations with me beyond the surface level into the deeper things about life, and our relationship with the Lord and how to move together in that. He never goes long without telling me how thankful he is for me or how beautiful I am or how much he loves me. I have never felt a more tangible love in my whole life. He can just look at me with those piercing blue eyes and I can just feel it. It feels safe and secure. I have never been a love at first sight kind of believer. I have always thought that love takes time to develop and grow as you develop a relationship, and that is still true…but I also now believe that when you have spent countless hours praying and believing for your husband to not only show up but also for just the person that he is and who he will be to you, it creates a love in you for them before you ever even meet them. I have prayed hard for my future husband and spent time praying for his character and calling forth the man that he would be. I have prayed for his day to day life long before I ever met him. I can tell you from the moment I met Jonathan, I just knew. The Lord had already developed a love in me for him so that when He finally brought him to me, I would just know that he is the one that the Lord had been preparing for me.
My dad has always set the bar so high that no one has ever measured up…until now. The Lord took my prayers and multiplied all that I had asked for and brought me a man who far exceeds any expectations I could have ever had. I am looking forward to the plans ahead with pure joy and happiness that really is only found when walking in the will of the Lord as He holds true to His promises…because HE IS A MAN OF HIS WORD.
I don’t know that I have enough adequate words to express the gratitude I have for you. I have walked a long journey to get to where I am and I could not be more amazed at the treasure I have found in you as a gift from the Lord. I catch myself often being completely overwhelmed by the love that has developed in such a short time. You have surpassed all the expectations that I had in the man I would marry one day and I feel blessed to know that I get to do life with you. You are thoughtful, intentional, strong, and have the purest heart. I never want you to go a moment without knowing how much I love you. I pray for you constantly. You are a phenomenal man and the Lord truly has a big plan for your life. All that you have been through over the years and the choices you have made are going to be used for the greatest testimony because we serve a God of restoration and healing who can use our lowest of lows to be a light to those currently in the valleys of life. You may be quiet and reserved in moments but the Lord is preparing you for the moment you break out of your shell and walk in the plan he has for you. I am one blessed woman to be the one who gets to walk alongside of you, following your lead as you hear from the Lord. I love that I get to watch it unfold. I am looking forward to the months ahead and just embracing this journey with you. Thank you for loving me the way you do and making me feel so safe and secure. I love you something fierce, babe.